High School doesn’t bring me back a lot of fond memories. I was an athlete and played in the orchestra at a large high school, but I couldn’t wait to get to college. I remember reading Joyce Meyer’s book, “Enjoying Where You Are on the Way to Where You Are Going.” Apparently, I needed a book to tell me how to enjoy being 17. I absolutely love where I am in life now, but I still struggle with living in the present. I seem to always be looking at the next big change. Enjoying the moment doesn’t come to me naturally. I thought there was something wrong with me until I heard Tsh Oxenreider mention something in her latest Simple Mom podcast.
The Simple Mom podcast mentions the Myers-Briggs personality test a lot. I find the Myers-Briggs personality types fascinating, because they are scary accurate. Tsh and Myquillyn talked about those with a “J” personality type tend to live in the future while those with “P” personality type like to live in the present. I am an ENTJ, so I had to look this up.
It turns out that those with iNtuitive (the N part of ENTJ) are those who have an orientation for the future and tend to be big picture people. The opposite of iNtuitive (N) is Sensing (S). People with the Sensing personality trait tend to be concerned with what is actual, present, current, and real. I realized I may be hardwired to always be making goals and working towards making dreams reality.
When we finished paying off our debt I was immediately concerned about what would be next. I was relieved when we decided to move on to the next step from Financial Peace University which is save 3-6 months income for an emergency fund. Then we decided to sell our home. We worked on it for 3 weeks before it was on the market. Now the house has been on the market for 2 weeks. It’s sort of killing me that I can’t make messes in my home and that I can’t make definite plans for the future until we have a closing date.
I am struggling to live in the moment. I have to work on homeschool and get the kids started going again. I need to enjoy these (hopefully) last few weeks of living in a nice fixed up home. All the back to school hoopla is happening and I am missing it, because I am focused on the house.
Knowing how my personality is wired helps me understand that I have to work harder to live in the moment. I have to tell myself it’s okay to relax and I don’t always have to be working towards to the next event. This weekend I am going to my best to not fret about the house selling or wondering when the next showing is going to happen. I am going to enjoy hanging with my family. Maybe we will curl up with some popcorn and a movie, build some lego towers, color some pages, or go drive around because we have a showing happening. We’ll see. I am trying not to plan every moment, ha!
How about you? Do you struggle with the living in the moment? Do you know your Myer-Briggs test results and do you find them accurate?